role players

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When I did cam work I had different views on interactions than my customers probably did. When you are exposed to the same rituals every day and night it triggers some basic correlations. Role playing, to me, is a lot like bedtime stories and imaginative exercise. The small percentage of guys who asked for role play usually wanted me to play a babysitter, coworker/secretary or sister/sister in law. I get the feeling they are the types who have been fantasizing for so long and are too afraid to act on it that their fantasies just decrease in morality (usually set by their own standards) in order to give them a “thrill” to replace physical sensation. I don’t care for role play, i’m the most interesting person i can think of to play. I don’t condone incest-ual or child play – if they’ve gone that far its past the time to steer the boat around and i’ll make my stand known.

Mostly role play is a way to “act out” deeper emotions on a superficial scale. there are a couple of role plays i’ve come across that kinda twisted my mind and have been wanting to share. If not educational, definitely entertaining in some capacity…

As in intro and side note to this one, there is a pretty popular role play that is racial in nature but used by all races. Black cock and the word nigger. Black guys want to hear white girls say the words as well as white guys pretending to be black guys to find out if they are treated differently or as though they have more power. And white cuckolders love to talk about watching women having sex with black men. There are plenty of single words that trigger men. Differs on culture and fetish, etc. Even count downs for some of the 20-30 somethings – they are so programmed they react subconsciously and sometimes have trouble ejaculating without verbal stimulation, cues or commands. But back to the black cocks – we’ve created such misconstrued divide between so many groups, of course race will play out in the sexual arena. Curiosity over penis size in relation to commanding power or being so racist in thinking that only true sluts like and can handle black penis are some of the common role play underlinings. Then I came across this guy who took it into a whole new direction….

He’d found me in free chat on the cam website and asked if i were any good at racial role play. I told him i’d had some practice and have no issues using words as stimulation and my vocabulary was uncensored. We arranged to meet on Skype and i gave him a discount at $150 for an hour. This was at about 1 am (2am in his time zone) and he wasn’t drinking, this was all very conscious thought. This guy is your typical, late 30’s, office IT guy. Just some detail I like to keep in mind.

He starts out by telling me he wants me to pretend he’s a slave and i’m the wife of his master. That he’d like for me to treat him really mean, call him a dirty nigger and look at him with disgust while i suck my husbands cock (the grand master who is wearing full kkk gear). This goes on for about 15 minutes as he intermittently corrects my acting as i’m not hateful and disgusted enough as i spew nigger at him (he finds pleasure in creating his dominant role by correcting me) Then i was to reprimand him for stroking himself in front of me. Then he wanted me to have sex with the grand master in front of them – he wanted me to use a dildo so i just fixed the camera to only my waist up and sat on my knees bouncing on a pillow to make it seem as if i were using the dildo (a trick i learned way before this show but can only use on really ADD types). But it was a smart move because i was in that position for the remaining 40 minutes.

After pumping the grand master as his white wife he had me morph into  one of the slave girls and have sex with the grand master with a pillow case over my head moaning ” oh massa” which he was also chanting (and i later came to realize he chants EVERYTIME he masturbates) – i felt ridiculous and awkward but still curious as to what was in this guy’s mind and what god was showing me through another crazy earthling experience. The bouncing and repetitive slang continued and then he had me morph back into a white woman who was now having sex with the slave she had been so disgusted by. He had me react like i was sickened but then pleasured (lol’ing at the memory of my acting job) and the whole scene turned around to him regaining some symbolic power. I found it an interesting sexercise to exorcise his own demons with self power and trying to find some reason to feel adequate enough to break the barriers racism/labels have shaped in his internal structure of perception.

Once this session ended he wanted another hour and sent payment. I was exhausted but since we’re already deep in the middle of it i went on. He then requested that I take him as a sex slave (no longer on the plantation) and make him suck off other men. This was the role play he was embarrassed about in the morning but he sure loved it at the time – def battling some self deprivation issues and need to feel safe enough to submit. The more you avoid it  because you’re afraid the scarier it gets ;) lol

The next guy wasn’t so violent and actually pretty comical. His request was so out there i initially thought he was just a young boy testing the patience and naiveté of a  cam girl. Here’s his scenario:  I’m a very rich woman and he is my house servant. Every night he comes into my room chambers to receive the next day’s orders. During which i call him over and somehow very nonchalantly feed him my right tit, which dispenses a potion to put him under a spell. The spell makes him do whatever i tell him and afterwards i give him the antidote from my left breast and he forgets everything. I’m thinking to myself this is his way of finding out what a woman wants and finds pleasurable and men love direction and goals and while they want to be dominant they also want some authority at times to give them security in “knowing”. So he has me put him under and please me. This went on for about 20 mins and i didn’t want to waste too much of his money on what to me felt silly, so i ended it by giving him the antidote and ordering him out of my room haha – ten minutes later he came back wanting another round so we went private and repeated the same scenario – he even came back a week later to do it again…..bedtime story ;)

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