too many children, not enough parents: adults in proxy

Furthermore, the notion that women have some duty to care for others above themselves, that all women must give more than they receive, is not only outdated; it’s insulting to women and men.

Women are not the caretakers of the world. Everyone is capable of caring and being cared for, and everyone must participate in that dynamic.

Whether or not a childless woman finds “other ways to give life to others,” as Tashjian urges, is no one else’s business. Until we start calling for men to find ways to “give life to others,” women should do whatever they damn well please. Yes, be a good person, but go have some fun. You earned it just by being alive. All women need to learn to put themselves first and make sure their own needs are met; only then is anyone capable of beginning to care for anyone else. No more forcing women to do things they don’t want to do.




“Operating far below the level of our conscious minds, the vagus nerve is vital for keeping our bodies healthy. It is an essential part of the parasympathetic nervous system, which is responsible for calming organs after the stressed ‘fight-or-flight’ adrenaline response to danger. Not all vagus nerves are the same, however: some people have stronger vagus activity, which means their bodies can relax faster after a stress.

The strength of your vagus response is known as your vagal tone and it can be determined by using an electrocardiogram to measure heart rate. Every time you breathe in, your heart beats faster in order to speed the flow of oxygenated blood around your body. Breathe out and your heart rate slows. This variability is one of many things regulated by the vagus nerve, which is active when you breathe out but suppressed when you breathe in, so the bigger your difference in heart rate when breathing in and out, the higher your vagal tone.”

look familiar?

it’s a different kind of “window” but the same scenario…

if you are a male – can you imagine being female in this world? how would you handle the inequality and expectation? unceasingly, every random man expecting from you the types of things you like to expect from women? always giving, always expected to and being degraded for wanting fairness. put your dick down once in a while and pick up the slacks


but in fairness, you even end up going after your own kind

what is enough? what are you really looking for? ;)

be careful with your devil side – it may lead you to the light or it may turn you into a beast – free will is available so don’t rely on the boundaries of society to be your moral compass, that’s a trap – the real holocaust is coming :)

lesson 4: cakral troubleshooting

Sexuality and spirituality are very closely tied together.  I’m not saying you have to be an overtly sexual person to be spiritual but I think that’s the reason sexuality is attempted to be so controlled by religions or any governing bodies. When I speak of sexuality I’m not referring to gender or preference but to the expression or repression of exhibiting a natural force.

The Second Chakra: Sacral Chakra

  • Sanskrit Name: Svadhishthana
Color: orange
  • Element: water
  • Development: 6 months – 2 years
  • Location: lower abdomen, below the navel
  • Balanced Qualities: sensuality, sexuality
  • Imbalanced Qualities: sexual dysfunction, lack of sensation
  • Main Right: To Feel
  • Body Location Where Physical Issues May Occur: reproductive organs

“Our Sacral Chakra deals with our needs and desires, both sexually and emotionally. This Chakra is also linked to our innate Creativity. An imbalance in our second Chakra can leave us feeling insecure and unable to deeply feel or enjoy physical or emotional sensations.

The main right of your Second Chakra is to be able to feel, and to enjoy the sensations of experiencing feeling, and like water, go with the flow.”

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There’s a great article here going into further detail of the body clock.

I understood quickly why God had led me into the cam work once i realized how creatively/sexually repressed/oppressed so many people had become of this type of forum to emerge. But at least they were reaching out (even if they weren’t aware). The nature of sexuality is related to creativity – to create, produce. When we’ve lost connection to the energy of “creation” it can stifle our creativity and sexuality or tip so far into one side we neglect the other. Both extremes can bring about a spiritual thirst that can be confused as a sexual void and so chasing that unicorn can only create more distortion, not satisfy the void.

With the males being very easy to wrangle with visuals I wondered what the women were relying on as escape. I learned that many women are connecting to spirits to play out the fantasies they are too afraid to attempt or unable to facilitate. I could understand this well because spirits helped me to train for the cam work – God would have me make love to many different types of “men” in spirit, once just moving as slowly as the air and making love to that – i was never a fantasizer but this was very powerful stuff. Spirits work through me in many of my experiences, helping me get through things and see different perspectives. They can help you access and stimulate many areas of yourself that the more repressed humans in our lives will be able to attempt or know how to engage in, much like fantasy women.

But all of this makes sense biologically and because of how we’ve been taught to carry our tension. Look at this picture representing the radiant movement of the cakras – you’ll notice the repression of the 3rd eye(purple) and sacral (orange) cakras

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Conciousness/God/spirit/energy/whatever-you-call-“it” connects or inspires us through the crown cakra (violet/gold funnel) and this energy flows down our spine along the cakras/energy vortexes. If there is congestion in an area it will be the most likely to be stimulated. You can visualize how energy will flow more freely in less restricted areas and get caught up and concentrated in more repressed areas of expression.

So you can see how a world of people losing connection and subconsciously trying to reconnect can be constantly triggered by sexual temptations and stories created from muscle memory imbedded in the unexpressed areas. This needs to be accessed to be worked through but continuing to entertain and enable the tension and creating habits around it can lead to further confusion and frustration. Instead of being triggered and reacting, ask ‘why the need exists?’ ‘can I be self sufficient without external de-vices?’

Repression of the sacral cakra can cause sexual deviation, shame in expressing sexuality, manipulative behaviors to protect from exposing sexuality and many more less obvious signs like tightness in the hips, creative “blocks” and eventually depression of the system, which can be brought on by any sluggish areas because it drains the other cakras.

There are many things you can do to release and express sacral congestion. Having a creative outlet is beneficial because artistic energy is coming from the same place and acts as an exhaust. Excessive sexual frustration can be addressed with physical exercise and exertion (don’t leave all the work to your sex organs!) Why do you think yoga classes are full of single women? Exercise should be more about release than “building”. Yoga takes the place of a healthy sex life for the most part but there are still things you can’t achieve with props. There are energetic peaks you can reach through the physical but with out the emotional connect there are some energetic places even the physical cannot force you into.

I’m focusing on the sacral cakra because it seems to be the universal traffic jam going on these days.

When you are triggered by something try removing all external senses and finding the energy you are connecting to – where is that energy in your body – where is the opposite of that energy in your body?

When you are frustrated and feeling numb, emotionless, cotton filled…try releasing fiber by fiber – start small with drawing or writing nonsense. begin to build on something to remind you of the genius inside of you.



In response to salvaguetion
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covert eyes

Instead of teaching my daughter to cover herself up, I will show her how to be exposed. Because no is not “convince me”. No is not “I want it”. You call me, “Little lady, pretty girl, beautiful woman.” But I am not any of these things for you.

I am exploding light, my daughter will be exploding light, and you, better cover your eyes”.