Trans genders: one of my causes from the god encounter
This is nothing new, though it’s making a splash in the news recently and rightfully so. Oh man, this topic is epic in so many ways. It addresses our very foundation, our shiva/shakti, positive/negative, solar/lunar, adam/eve beginnings. God himself (I refer to him as a He just as a personal preference and complimentary pairing to my feminine structure) is basically a trans gender. He shows himself to me through men and women, embodying the spirit of his sexuality and sensuality, not objectifying a vessel but using each medium as a canvas to display his many facets.
I see God in her, singing to me: https://www.facebook.com/lindsey.shay.atkinson3/videos/1041941395820778/?pnref=story
I saw God in Caitlyn Jenner today in an article: https://www.yahoo.com/tv/s/caitlyn-jenner-steps-nyc-wearing-101100515.html
Look at the smile in the eyes of those ladies. These are free spirits. These are appreciative and celebratory beings unobstructed from suffering silently and playing the game. They, more than most of the female smoke screens used for manipulations, inspire me to enjoy and celebrate my body. Media displays women as sexual objects and looking at those images always stirs that reminder, I am an object. Seeing these spirits, regardless of their sexual implications, enjoy decorating and displaying their artfulness and self appreciation makes me feel more empowered to do the same, with a new found responsibility to take back what has been disfigured in society. Thank you for the extra sparkle in my eye today.
This doesn’t just apply to women. How often are men encouraged to peacock themselves without the taint of being labeled too feminine? Very rarely. Society has made the barbie doll much cooler than Ken. But that is just perversion creating an illusion. Women are beautiful, my circle paintings are direct dedications to my bubble butt and luscious curves. But for me, men are way more attractive and mysteriously beautiful, not just physically, but also the potential they have within to be a compliment to me. Women are lunar, round, soft and full. Men are solar, edgy, firm and pliable. Can you mix textures, of course! Being attractive is nice but finding our happy, comfort zone is essential for growth and making positive changes or opportunity in life.
Do you need to be loved and desired by everyone? Sounds like you’ve got some self love/worth issues. Very few can truly steal your heart. And the only one that really matters is the one experiencing your heart…YOU! It’s gonna take a pretty spectacular man to realize and appreciate all my nooks and crannies, but i’ll be there to reveal them to him. Do you even know what is worth revealing and sharing about yourself? What about you do you find value in? Have you ever been allowed to consider that?
Another issue this brings up for me in regards to the female culture is seeing the LGBTQ community band together. We do try as women and we are making gains, but something we can learn from all of this is to support each other. Stop the jealous thoughts when you see another beautiful/talented woman. Imagine you are her and every time someone sees your image some negative energy is thrown at you…that shit piles up and always stinks. During my cam work I gained more respect for both men and women (my commentary may not always reflect that but imagine what i thought before and read with a touch of sarcasm and desperation to make a point). I knew the work these women were doing daily, it is a grind – no pun intended. But they went on everyday, smiling and hiding their frustrations and exhaustion behind their sociable eyes.
Sometimes I would see one and think “it must be so easy for her – people just do what she wants” but thats just the illusion – upon tapping in i see the same issues and insecurities all women have. Do you feel good when another woman, whether you like them or not, fails at something or faces struggle? If yes, then why? What in you feels so unfairly treated or less than that you have to battle an image? We all know what its like to take bad pictures and if one comes out nice we feel stupid and selfish for thinking so. You are nature, you are art. You are not your body, your body is your play ground. Learn again how to play, have fun with nature and give others the same courtesy to experiment and discover themselves within it.
It hardens my heart when I do this work and get negative feedback, especially from women. I’m fighting a cause dedicated to all genders, especially women as I am one myself. When you back up or excuse the ingrained misogyny of predatory men you are doing their work for them like a good slave. I understand wanting to stand up for the weaker sex but my methods come from what they’ve shown me that they respond to. An authoritative male voice, which is usually a bit degrading, it’s just what they relate to in transition, it’ll even out…I’ve tried many different approaches but had to take on or incorporate some of their characteristics to be more relatable.
When a woman wants to berate me for responding to people who’ve sought me out, then that shows me that she’s one of those gals who probably doesn’t get the attention she wants from men, thinking the attention I get is desirable, and by backing the men up maybe it will give her some positive male attention for siding with them. Not cute and it doesn’t work – you just become the female friend for the dudes to vent to about the girls they are actually attracted to….am i right? Having some respect for yourself is the best way to achieve respect back.
So I guess I’ll be getting back to full spectrum work here – looking forward to filling in the other side of my observations and experience. In the mean time…..work it girls ;) xoxo